I think a lot about what I am thankful for, maybe more than most people, though I'm not sure. I just tend to be one of those very senitmental people who cry at touching commercials and cry when I am touched by someone's kindness. I have always been one of those "glass is half full" kind of people. Over the last year and a half, I have been through some very major changes - life altering changes. It was like when I hit 40, my whole world just turned topsy turvy, but in a good way. That's what I mean when I say I always can see the good in things. These changes I talk about include, death of a parent very dear to me, divorce, starting back to work after 10 years of being a stay home mom, realizations about myself that I had to work out in a lot of therapy that some of the people reading this will know about. But through it all, I feel that I've weathered it well. I have continued my belief that all things in life happen for some reason, namely to teach us lessons, but not solely. Sometimes we may not know why it is happening or may not know for years, but then one day we'll follow a chain of events to figure out that all of it is connected. It is in how you view the change (positive or negative) that determines how well you can survive it. This all sounds like a neat little package doesn't it? It sounds easy to just type it down. But sometimes in life things happen that I just have the hardest time with.
A friend just recently found out that her 7 yr old is very sick and must have a very serious surgery to hopefully save his life. He is in surgery right now. I want to believe that we are here to learn and be made into better, more caring, more thankful people. But even I have a hard time knowing why this had to happen, and wondering if this child will be ok. Children should not have to go through things like this. I do know one thing. I can't be thankful enough in times like these. Thankful for my children's good health, my own, my loved ones, and yes thankful for every day that goes by that I can enjoy with my kids and my dear W. I know that life is short, and any little stress that we think is getting us down, is not really that bad. I should be more thankful for those precious moments of happiness. I will try over this weekend to savor every moment I have with my family. and I will be thinking of my friend and praying for them to have the strength to get through the coming days. I know this is kind of sad, but I do think it is important for me to write. When I'm in the middle of the "stuff" of life, I will think, "see the big picture you idiot" don't get caught up in any things that take away from enjoying this precious time.
that's all for now.
